Current mood:

contemplative

An odd day
Today is Father's Day.However,due to the fact that I never had kids of my own and my own Father passed away some two years ago now,it kind of leaves me feeling a bit odd.I keep wondering if not setting down with woman,getting married and starting a family was the right decision.I am a person who doesn't like to do what is expected of them(a non-conformist rebel of sorts),so for a long time the idea of having a wife,home & 2.5 kids(one of each sex according to the ideal American Family) repulsed me.I wanted to do my own thing.While I did get the home and the steady job,I didn't have the family.I guess that now that I'm hitting middle age(I'll be 44 in two weeks),I start to wonder what life would have been like to have been a father.Oh,well.I guess I'll just play the hand life has delt me and see where I end up.